It's Me??

I'm feeling so down tonight.. Well, not only tonight, it's been a while.. It make me thought, no one ever knew the other side of me.. sometimes I feel like I'm running a double life.. Once school time is over, I'll change into someone else..  Someone that even I hardly know..

In school, my smile will never fade away.. My mind is clear.. I even forgot about my problems especially PMR..  but at home, my room is my paradise.. It's hard to see me wandering around my house.. I'll just go out to eat or when there's no one at home.. Tears?? It'll accompany me at night.. Sometimes, I feel like I can go on anymore.. It's hurt badly.. No one can understand me.. More important, no one trust me!! That's make me even more sad..

Just now,one of my friends asked me if I have any problems.. Her question surprised me.. My sadness, is it too obvious now?? I thought I've manage to hide it deep down in my heart.. I don't want to tell them.. Because I know I'll end up crying like before.. Well, people does say crying is the most effective way to reduce sadness.. So does sharing.. I don't know what to think now.. Everything seems to be so far away for me to reach it.. Success and happiness.. Two things I miss the most.. Oh god, help me change myself.. Make me a better person..